A Review of 2010

This year has been a no joke for us, Blessed Singleness. Issue after issue came up like there's no tomorrow. But, God's work among us is still clearly seen. August 27, 2010 is forever etched in my heart as the day when we got married to each other. That day/night, I felt a strange thread connecting us. I can't explain yet what it is though & I'm not even sure if you felt it, too. I know, until now, there are issues left unsolved but I'm sure, in God's own time, everything will fall into place. Honestly, I don't understand why we need to suffer as a group. However, I do understand that God has a purpose why He allows us to suffer like this. For now, I can't see its relevance in my life today but I'm positive that in the next years ahead, the learning I acquired from all the challenges we faced & will be facing will become handy especially when our inevitable separation loom closer.

I've learned so many things from my depression the last 2 months. I know that during the process, I unintentionally hurt some of you if not all. I'm still healing & I'm not quite sure if the 2-week vacation was enough to abate my anger & frustration. I guess it greatly helped & so did the books I read & am reading this moment. By God's grace, I did not feel the loneliness I felt during the second half of 2010. I'm thankful for that because if I still felt lonely this December, I don't know what I'll become with the Blessed Singleness.

This would be all for tonight. I just posted for the last time here in our blog for this year. God bless all of us in God's family!!!!!=D

The Clock Ticks

 

To start off, I’d like to share a quotation I once read in a novel. It’s pretty simple though but it caught me. “Time turns friends into strangers.”

I would not dare hide what I feel in words so deep but I would make it simple for the one who is reading this. I guess now is the time I express my writings in a way a bit friendly to the readers. So here it goes...

A vessel recorded. It’s Saturday afternoon, I was reading a notebook. Well it’s not typically just a notebook, it’s sort of a mixed journal, diary and art notes.  Written inside those pages is the world I used to be and forever will be. Hidden in every detailed drawing and poems is a being of my every dark corners. Every turn of the pages reveal a part of my history. It’s a remedy and a reminder of the person that I am today. Why I decided to revisit the notebook again? I don’t know. I guess I have to see for myself the changes of the vessel that journeyed from its port up to the heart of the wide ocean. Just by seeing it partly though, it still needs a crew to stop its leaks. That is what I’m bound to face.

Life as it is, full of mystery. Every lightning is unpredictable. You’ll never know where it will strike not until it has fallen. Every smile is remarkable. You’ll never know what it means not unless uttered by the mouth. Every person’s foible is questionable. You’ll never know if he’s a coward not until he proves something. A person has his ways of showing and letting others know how he feels. “To understand any living thing you must creep within and feel the beating of its heart.” Giving your all and adjusting for others even losing your pride is love. Love acts in an enigmatic way. It makes the heart either soft or rough. It’s like a fire that melts butter and the same fire that hardens steel.

”The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away.” There’s always a reason and a purpose unfolding in every decorated gift. Would it be nice to have a friend as a present? For me it’s quite fair especially if they’re different from the others. A friend is always a friend. But I guess it does not apply to all. When time hinders, then things change. Would a smile be something special if it comes to the unknown, or would a touch mean it cares not unless you think so? Now that I come to think of it, it doesn’t mean anything to a stranger at all.  That is definitely a sad ending to a story of a six-sided star shining among the others.  When a star dies it turns into a black hole, attracting the positive into negative. Definitely supernatural to think that it would come back and live again as a glittering star. Thus, it is mysteriously given and unexpectedly taken. Why of all the enemies to stand together in fate and time, the latter itself turned its back?

How is it then? How to stop the time? How to avoid the gap that’s beginning to grow in the innermost core of the heart? Or is it really the time? What then or who is to be blame? Why is it that the gold is always to be expected when the silver lining is slowly missing? Why does rejection always threatening when hope and trust coincide? Is it still there or is it broken? Is there a wall trying to hinder? Is it made out of selfishness from one or from all? Isn’t it better to start with positive anything than negative nothing? What now? Is it all gone and wasted? What’s a friend now? What’s the purpose then? How is it that one can change into something special because of being a friend? Is it then an advantage to have many for lessons to learn or a disadvantage for feeling a deadly pain that’s doubled and twice as many times? Now that’s redundant but definitely true. When will I stop asking? How about you answer the questions? Guess not.

The clock ticks. Days are now long gone, and years come passing by. What’s left of us then? Time will pass and I hope that love will still remain. When one is hungry, feed him with food. When one is thirsty, suffice him with water. When one lacks communication, what to do? Nothing is much wonderful when we get used to it. If holding grudges is your cup of tea, well not for all. No matter how hard you shun away from the darkness of the night, you’ll never get away. Why? You’ll never see the light of the day not unless you’ll get through the night. Oi!!! The clock ticks, it’s time for awakening. The clock ticks, it’s time for acceptance. The clock ticks, it’s time to choose your art. What art? You have options.  It’s either you choose the art of reconciling or the art of letting go.  Choose now, not before the clock stops ticking. 

Ange's 2nd blog. :)

Hello! It's me, Aura. This is supposed to be Ange's turf but she posted in the wrong blog again. Apparently, she made a poem about us, the Blessed Singleness. You can see her post here in this link: Ange's Blog

You have to read her poem. It's marvelous!

New Group:New Look

This turn is supposed to be Juvy's. Since she has not found the inspiration to write yet, I'll just make an entry for the month of August. It's almost a month since the last post by Jessreal and it's high time for a fresh content. Hopefully, Juvy can write or post next week.

As you can see, the design changed. You may be wondering why it was changed. The reason for that is because we agreed to modify the look because we have become a new group. Don't misunderstand. We didn't separate or add members. This new group I'm talking came about last Friday, August 27, 2010. We were undergoing some distressful, painful, mind-boggling, and dangerous situations where in we nearly gave in. We know that Satan is trying to separate us. I hate to admit it but he almost succeeded if God did not intervene. It's so true that God will not allow us to be tempted beyond what we can bear. We've been praying very hard individually for everything to be fixed and it took a month or two before our prayers were answered. During that time, I was at a loss on how to deal with the situation unfolding right before my eyes. I don't know about how the others coped but what I do know is that the problem was so complicated that we have different issues and perspectives. We were hurt but the pain we were experiencing were different. We do try to understand each other but it came to the point where we were already at wits end. However, God is so amazing and wonderful, majestic and so powerful, that He didn't allow us to break apart. We were at the breaking point. A trial by fire in other words and we succeeded in facing it because of His help. It's very true that what God has joined let not any man separate. God was the one who made us. He was the one who nurtured our group. And, He is the one who continues to care for our group. He is not just our God, but our Father. We are a family, a part of God's kingdom.

Now, I can say that we are very blessed with the outcome. Through that circumstance, I realized that I can't live without God and without my family in Christ. Right now, my first love is God and my 2nd love is my family in Christ, the Blessed Singleness. They are deeply rooted in my heart that I don't know how they got there.

God bless the Blessed Singleness! God loves us so much and we love Him very much, too! Furthermore, we love each other so much that it hurts. =D. Through thick and thin, in sickness and in health, as death do us part, 'till we meet again in heaven...♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ mwah! I love you, Sis Oreo, Sis Juvy, Sis Ange, Darling Sis and Sis Janine....

"I MISS THEM"

Looking at their pictures makes my heart bleed. I cried then smiled. I MISS THEM so much. Sometimes I wonder what they are probably doing while I am here crying and longing for their hugs and kisses. Maybe, they are also thinking of me. For sure they are. I could still remember those times when we used to laugh and eat together in our used-to-be called home. My Nanay would always go to my room and tell her heartaches. We cry together and sing songs for the Lord. How I miss those moments. A day would not end without Tatay telling us to be wise in dealing with life. He would reprimand us if it is necessary. Manong tickles me to the bones and gives me some hard punches. Those are my Manong’s way of telling me he cares and loves me. Often, our playtime would end into crying time. Those were unforgettable moments. Now, I can hardly listen to their voices, see them smile and touch them. When the day is over, everyone is gone, and everything is finished, I always find myself thinking and dreaming about them. Tears would then roll down my cheeks unnoticed and I just can’t stop myself but sob. Reminiscing those happy moments are just painful.

However, I still praise the Lord for giving me a family in school (Blessed Singleness and other friends) that never treats me as a stranger but with arms open wide welcomes me as part of their lives. Although sometimes we encounter misunderstandings and from time to time I get disappointed because of them, never did they make me feel I’m not loved. Every single moment with them are so worthwhile that I can’t imagine life without them. Together, we learn things with fun. The Lord also gave me this family in Sudlon. I don’t see them often as I used to before but we have this connection that only God knows what. Whenever I visit them, happiness would fill my heart. There are people who suddenly come into my life and encourage me all the way. My family in church (Bible Baptist Church) encourages me whenever my heart grows weary. What a privilege it is to have these great people! Though I don’t have my family with me, God gave me these families who give me strength and inspiration.

I admit it. I don’t have the talents others have, if we talk about “beauty and brains” I also don’t have it (by the way, it’s ONLY Darling who always tells me I’m beautiful because I inherit it from her=), a perfect family I have none and I don’t have an earthly home. Nevertheless, I thank God for giving me enough. Enough friends whom I can simply share my problems with, enough people who really cares about me, and a Heavenly Father who is more than enough. Indeed, they are my treasures. Life with them is simply amazing! Now, when I think of them, I can’t help myself but smile because if people would ask me about my family, I could tell them “I have enough”.

Mark 10:28-30

²⁸Then Peter began to say unto him, Lo, we have left all, and have followed thee (Jesus).

²⁹And Jesus answered and said, Verily I say unto you, There is no man that hath left house, or brethren, or sisters, or father or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my sake, and the gospel’s,

³⁰But he shall receive a hundredfold now in this time, houses, and brethren, and sisters, and mothers, and children, and lands, with persecutions; and in the world to come eternal life.

" I would like to apologize to my sisters in Christ and my darling for the delay. It's just that I don't know what to write at first. Thank you for your encouragements. I love you all."

"To GOD Be the Glory"

my 2nd blog: Original post by Angie

my 2nd blog: Blood rushing through my veins. Hands and feet sha...: "Blood rushing through my veins. Hands and feet shaking beneath the floor. The atmosphere of a courtroom really makes my mind rattle with an ..."

THIS IS THE BLOG POST THAT ANGELLI WROTE.. Please click the link so as to see the whole writing in the blog itself.. The poem is very nice..

BLESSED SINGLENESS

A few days earlier, i was lying in my bed with the word 'BLOG' running through my head.

"blog,blog,blog,bloooooooog!!!!!!..."

what's blog anyway?i haven't tried making one before..

i was thinking why am i going to make one?

i mean why should i when im not fond of sharing my thoughts and neither am i a good writer?

then suddenly BLESSED SINGLENESS popped out into my mind...

I would not deny that way back in my highschool days, i also have a group of friends or barkada.

Having the initial letters of our names, we used to call our group 'MARCJV'.

They were the friends which my world evolved around back in highschool, it's always boring without them.

However,what strikes me most is that everytime i linger a memory about them,

i always feel pain.

Pain of being neglected,pain of being used,pain of being judged,it's the pain for being real.

So when i left Bohol for college, i also left the memory of my highschool years full of undying heartaches.

As i entered college, there i met my wonderful,amazing,superb, magnanimous,splendid sisters in Christ namely Jessreal,Juvy,Jeremy,Luz and Angie.(hehehehe)

And we are the BLESSED SINGLENESS!!!

(funny how i used to call us the 'SINGLE BLESSEDNESS')

but all the same we have a genuine gift of pulchritude.(.!_!.)

So if i were to ask, there are no words to express how much i feel about this group.

All i know is that when i am with them, i need not to be somebody else.

I need not to put expensive jewelries or wear one of the finest dress

for them to love me as a whole being.. And me being a rose,

they did not only love the flowers that's blooming in me

but they also embraced the thorns that are with me.

A great person loves the unacceptable side of others, and its amazing to know that my sisters in Christ are really great persons in their own unique ways.

They are the ones who made me feel the essence of belongingness,

 and that i'm also unique in my own special way.

Its been years and years since i learned to trust again and

though im not that open now, BLESSED SINGLENESS has helped me break the walls

that i once built due to so much pain and rejection that i've experienced.

God knows how much i'm thankful for giving me such loving friends

that i can always remember when i grow old. I could say that

 it's the time of my life that i am most thankful for through them I was able to know 

the truth, and I was able to appreciate the beauty of the Bible Scriptures.

Also to be honest without them i would not be able to try Bible Studies which i was very curious long,long time ago.

It's always a memory worth keeping in every second that i'm with them.

I can assure that when it's time for us to go in our own separate ways,

every memory that will linger into my mind will be the times of true happiness that i felt in every moment i had with them.

To my sisters in Christ- "yours is the face always worth remembering".

And to you, yes you! I may not be a good writer or anything but hey i just told you how i feel and that's something!.

(mwah,tsup2x,xoxo ug uban pa nyahahahaha) - oir=)

Welcome My Sisters in BS!!!♥♥♥

Yehey.. I gladly introduce to our readers my sisters in the Blessed Singleness who are now my co-admins here...

Oir - She really created a gmail account so that she can access this blog.. We will be expecting some posts from her soon.. Hopefully, on Monday, we can read what she has to post..
Sophia - We will be looking forward to all her posts since she writes many interesting stories.. She spent an hour so that she can gain access to blogspot and her efforts weren't futile..
Angie - I hope she'll be able to access the net soon so that she can also write.. She's a writer at heart..
Jessreal Lou - She needs to visit internet cafes frequently so that she can write here, too..

However, there is one beautiful Blessed Single who doesn't have a Twitter account yet nor is she part of the blog site yet.. Her name is Juvy.. Let's hope she'll be active in the internet soon so that she won't be left behind..

Sisters: Let's all encourage Juvy to join this site and to write as well because we do know that she's good in writing.. Agree?

From now on, expect many things from my sisters in Christ.. I'm quite excited for them.. I want to read their posts that much.. hehehehehe...

My First Blog by Sophia

NOTE: due to sensitivity of the matter, i decided not to narrate what really was the problem which would probably make this writing a little bit "out of this planet ". i do hope, with the wisdom of our ALMIGHTY GOD, you will be able to get something from this. 


ITS me vs Monster PAGUFE

For the past week, i scarcely slept and ate well. Unusual rashes covered some parts of my back, lower neck, and stomach. (It was so annoying that i even reprimand myself from eating chicken thinking its an allergic reaction.) Instantaneously, i became choleric, squeamish, moody, and a total jerk.

Perhaps, PAGUFE was succeeding in his job-that is gnawing my heart, suffocating my mind, abasing my soul.
Who is he?
He is a monster.
And i created him.......WITHIN.
He came to life when something happened between me and 2 of my dear friends.
He was benign at the beginning thus, i ignored him. I pretended i was fine, i faked my smiles, i even disdained the mere thought of asking for help. Then, he slowly grew bigger...so sooner than i thought..

I tried to confront PAGUFE. 
I tried to destroy this heinous monster.
But, before every battle would start, i would cowardly surrender.
Call me chicken, timid, craven, dastard, poltroon. Call me whatever you want. For me, its just hard to combat against the soldier you see when you look in the mirror. It is so hard 
to face ones fault,
to accept ones shortcomings,
and to forgive ones wrongdoing.

PAGUFE is my PAin, my GUilt, my FEar. He is crashing my spirit everyday until i remembered HIM.

>PSALM 27:1"The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?"
>PSALM 46:1-3 "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.Therefore will not we fear , though the earth be removed , and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;Though the waters thereof roar and be troubled , though the mountains shake with the swelling thereof. Selah."
>ISAIAH 60:13a "As one whom his mother comforteth , so will I comfort you.."
>ISAIAH 41:10 " Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed ; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness."

i lost many battles against PAGUFE, but i,with willingness, and GOD won the war. Nothing is bigger than Him; not the monster we create or Satan himself..."for our God is a consuming fire." Heb. 12:29

Now, those cataclysmal moments are nothing but learnings. I am walking in the road which God purposely prepared for me. Their will be many self-created monster i will face in the future...yet, for now, THE WAR is OVER.




Taken from the message Janine sent to me since she can't access blogger yet and we don't know why. All of the content was written by Janine. I just posted it.

We'll See Each Other Again!

Yehey! Tomorrow is the day we've been waiting and dreading for. I'm so happy that I can see again my Blessed Singleness sisters. And, I can get to spend time with them. Maybe you're wondering why I'm the one writing here again. The others were busy or they were away [sort of]. Anyway, please expect that they'll be writing here soon. I'won't stop bugging them until they do it. hehehehehe.

Anyway, I just want to inform our readers that we will be reunited once again. I won't be here much, though, because I created my own blog now so I'll only write here once in a while if there are any news about the BS. Don't be sad [as if anyone will be sad].. hehehehe.. God speed to my brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus!

Jessreal and I are looking forward to our future Bible studies since we were able to buy a handbook at a bargain book shop 2 weeks ago. We hope that the others will like it as well. I can say that all of us grew more mature during the summer break.

The Start of a New School Year

Yes, so it's only a few weeks time before classes will resume. I'm anxious and glad at the same time. Anxious because I don't know who my professors will be and IF they are going to be terrors or not. Glad because I will get to spend a lot of time with my friends, though, not with my BS sisters since we have different schedules. I do hope that we can find available times to do some Bible study for this semester. I'm the only one who has a very different schedule from them so I guess I'll be missing many things. I do hope my insecurities will disappear. On the other hand, it's not like I can't see them anymore right? I do miss them a lot but we don't have that much choice. I know that they will be always there for me as I am for them.
I've heard some senpais say that junior year is the hardest for the English majors since projects are thrown at us left & right. I'm sure that is true since I've seen them work so hard. However, I believe that the senior year would be the hardest for me since I'm not cut out to be a teacher let alone in English. Thinking about that, I can only rely on God for the strength to endure and overcome. He knows my strengths and my weaknesses, my insecurities and my fears, so I'm sure He will work everything out for His glory. I just have to trust in Him and let Him do what He wants to do in my life. I know college is not easy but there is nothing impossible with the Lord. Faith can move mountains just as Jesus Christ said.

Talking about summer vacation..............


How was your summer vacation? Mine was uneventful except for my driving lessons and some minor conflicts. I can now drive but I haven't processed my license yet. I'm not in a hurry anyway. I also had a Bible study session with my brothers and sisters in Zarkity. I have participated in the recent presidential election in my country in order to exercise my right to suffrage. My bet didn't win but I'm content since I voted for someone whom I believe can lead the country well. Plus, I know that the Lord has a grand plan for my country and it was by His decree that the winners won the election. All I need to do is pray for the leaders of this nation and to support their advocacies as long as they are in accord with the Word of God.
This summer, I learned many things and the most recent was Esau and David's similar skin color. It may be just a small thing to learn but I never knew this before and I believe that every learning with regards to the Bible is worth noting. This is something that I haven't learned in Sunday schools or in Bible studies or in conferences that I have attended. Another thing I learned was about the Seventh Day Adventists and their doctrines. I won't say it here since it's controversial and I don't want to offend adventists. Still, what I learned about them is also of grave importance.

I guess that's all I can write this time. My summer this year is better than the last one since I did many things and I reconnected with old contacts/chatmates. I hope and pray that God will bless everyone who reads this post and may your faith grow stronger together with us in the Blessed Singleness.

*Note: I'll try and encourage my sisters in the BS to write their eventful summer vacation one of these days. Please look forward to it!

Summer time sometimes mean Bye Bye

Yes. You read it right. I'm currently on summer vacation and I terribly want it to end. You may think I've gone mad or something. I mean who doesn't LOVE summer? Well, I sure do love summer, however, I become lonely, bored and stagnant during the two months that I don't have anything to do. I sure want to get a summer job so that I can have some working experience. The problem is, I don't know where to look for one. Another thing is that I won't get to see and spend time with my sisters in Christ because they are all going home to their respective provinces, except for Angelli {but then she's got many things on her plate so I don't dare bother her}. I actually hate this kind of things. I don't want to say goodbye to someone especially those who are dear to me but I know that it's inevitable. I feel very sad even though I know that this is only temporary. Maybe, in the back of my mind, I already know that we'll separate paths sooner than I wanted it to be. Of course, it's not up to me to decide. Only God knows when and how we'll separate and if we will still see each other in the days ahead. I guess I have to start readying myself for that day so that I won't get hurt that much. I sound so pathetic and hopeless, don't I? It's just my emotion getting the better of me. I do know for SURE that I will still see them because Jesus has defeated death. And, I hold on to His promise that we, who believe in Him, will be with Him in heaven. That's why, my sadness is replaced with joy whenever I think of Jesus' promise.

On the other hand, there are also good things that summer brings. My mind can take a much needed rest from school related works and I can somewhat relax for long periods of time. I will be able to focus on learning more about God and to effectively serve in His ministry during this time. Unfortunately, there's a problem with this setting. I AM SOOOOO LAZY that I tend to just sit and become a couch potato in front of the computer or television doing nothing for God. I know it's got to do with self-discipline and, believe me, I have been trying to discipline myself some years ago but my efforts were just futile because I didn't ask for the Lord's help. Now, I want to do something worthwhile that will bring glory to God and to His name. With the grace of God, I can make it.

I guess that would be all for now. If I feel like it, I may be able to update and write here once a week. Of course, it depends upon the situation I'm in and my mood.

Want to know my secret in writing? I'll whisper it to you.. Come closer so that you'll here me..


*whispers in a small, chilly voice*
I'm not a good writer and the stuffs I write here are all impromptu. It's the Lord who has given me the words to write and the passion to do it. The Lord imprinted in my heart the love for writing and I know that He has given me the skill to do so. I've been discouraged before but the Lord has been very gracious to me and lifted up my spirit. Now, I only write for Him and through Him.


There you go. That's my secret. I've only divulged it to you and I hope you learned something from it.

God speed to all my brothers and sisters in CHRIST JESUS!!!!

What happened to "Christendom"?

It's been a month since my last post. I never had any plans to write today, but, I am so disturbed with the news that I had read a few minutes ago about molestation committed by priests, gay and lesbian ministers, atheist & agnostic pastors, etc. What happened to these people who are supposed to LEAD the children of God? THEY are displaying UNCHRISTIAN, UNGODLY, and ABOMINABLE ACTIONS that IS NOT supposedly present in A CHRISTIAN'S LIFE. What they're doing STAINS the very name of GOD and HIS SON, JESUS CHRIST. How can those who don't believe in Jesus be saved if they see that so-called CHRISTIANS behave this way? An unbeliever can never be able to distinguish a TRUE CHRISTIAN from a FAKE one because MAJORITY of the famous "CHRISTIANS" today are F-A-K-E. Only when a person measures another person with the BIBLE as the STANDARD can he know who is the TRUE and who is the FALSE Christian. Call me judgmental. I don't care. The Lord knows that what I'm saying is the truth. I am angry with what they are doing while claiming to be HIS follower. I don't hate the sinner or those people who committed those actions because I know that SATAN is leading them by the neck. What I HATE is the DAMAGE they cause to JESUS CHRIST'S NAME through the ACTIONS they did which they justify IN THE NAME OF JESUS. That is VERY UNACCEPTABLE!!!! I AM 100% SURE THAT JESUS WILL NEVER PRAISE THEM FOR THEIR ACTIONS NOR WILL HE SEE THEM AS ACCEPTABLE.

TO ALL THE PEOPLE OUT THERE: Those PRIESTS, PASTORS AND MINISTERS who did those ABOMINABLE THINGS, those who ACCEPTED THEM AS TRUTH and those who KNEW BUT DID NOT REBUKE THEM are NOT CHRISTIANS.. THEY DON'T BELONG TO GOD! If they were, they would not have done those things and they would be ashamed of themselves for TAINTING God's name.

Note: I am not claiming to be a saint and a perfect human being. I am also A DISOBEDIENT CHILD at times and I know that I've hurt God many times. I even bring shame on HIS name. One way or another, I am also guilty of the sins that some of them committed. I realized that being a CHRISTIAN in name only is easy but being a CHRISTIAN in deed is hard yet it is the correct way of sharing JESUS to the WORLD and obeying God. The priests, pastors and ministers impact and influence many lives which enables them to lead many to Christ or to bring destruction upon God's kingdom. That's the reason why I am so fired up with the scandals that are popping here and there about their UNGODLY ACTIONS. CHRISTIANITY has become a DEN OF HYPOCRITES. After the apostles died, many FALSE DOCTRINES AND TEACHINGS entered and enveloped the church and we can still see the effects of that today. Even the priests, pastors, ministers and church leaders themselves are lost and is in need of Jesus Christ. As members of God's TRUE CHURCH, we should pray for them and if we can help them, we must not hesitate to do so. This issue does not only involve the church leaders but also us, members, who are under their supervision. We ought to help them find the LIGHT of JESUS.

I know that this thing will continue until Christ's Second Coming. Till then, we should give our everything in leading as many people to Jesus as the Lord wills us to lead. Only with God's help and power can we make right the distorted view of Christianity in the eyes and minds of unbelievers. Let us pray that God will melt the hearts of the priests, pastors, ministers and church leaders who are involved in those issues and that He will lead them to Him.

GOD SPEED TO MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS IN CHRIST ALL-OVER THE WORLD!

LET US GLORIFY THE NAME OF GOD AND SHOW TO THE WORLD WHAT BEING A TRUE FOLLOWER OF CHRIST REALLY IS....

Hear Me....

That's the title of Sis Janine's message to me in Facebook. I was a little bit taken aback by what I read when I opened it. It was a poem. At first, I did not understand why she sent me that poem. But while I read it, I slowly understood what she meant by it. Before I post her full message to me, I will share to you the story behind that poem. On that day, Sis Janine was heavily disappointed and hurt by Jessreal, Angelli [both Blessed Singleness sisters] and Mary Ann [our friend in school]. They were supposed to skip PE due to a program in our department, but then, the three of them attended while Sis Janine was with us [me and Juvy] in the Kalambuan Hall looking at the ensuing program. They did not call her and they did not hear Sis Janine tell them "Let's go." So that's where the misunderstanding occurred. It lasted for about a day and a half. Since they are sisters in Christ, it's a great burden in their heart. And they are very close, for that matter. But, it all ended well. And we praise the Lord for it. I believe that it's really hard to fight a sister or brother in Christ because we were commanded to be humble and forgiving at all times. They shed many tears along the way and, in the end, Juvy and I was fooled by their very convincing act.
Truth be told, I was not that affected because in the back of my mind, I know that they will make up. Although, I was also contemplating on what will happen if this rift would go on. If they hadn't made up the next day, we have no choice but to interfere. The Lord really answered my prayer so there was no need for us to meddle in. Thank you, Lord!!! I never imagined that Sis Janine and Jessreal would ever go into a misunderstanding because they are like two peas in a pod. I guess my conception was wrong.
Now, here is the poem and the whole message of Sis Janine. She cried heavily on this matter. That's why this is not just your ordinary friend fights. This is not an ordinary poem either.

Paroxysm
(a sudden violent emotion or action)

In the 15th of February
My heart was broke
My spirit was crashed
Pain and pride, I gulped


As I took my cursing steps away from them,
Myriads of anguish blossomed within.
I was secretly groaning in excruciating pain
“ Oh, damsel when will this ever end? ”


My soul said, “Stop. Please, do not walk away.
Don’t act like an ogre badly dismay. ”
My ego hissed, “Hate. Do not look back.
Act like a Titan; be ready to attack.”



I was driven by an ecstatic force they labeled as anger.
I totally forgot it’s just a letter away from danger.
I drowned myself in oblivion and became madly bitter.
How it did happen- I couldn’t possibly remember.


Oh, what an agony not to look them in the eyes,
Not to say a word to the “angels in disguise”.
Perhaps, no greater pain one could ever feel
Than to hide all those tormenting tears



Oh, what a pathetic plight it had been
How stupid I was to bring so much pain
To agonize those precious benign beings
And give them not a chance to perfectly explain


I disdain myself for being eccentric and brat
But I praise God for touching each one’s heart

Only the epitome of love, mercy, and grace
Could heal the brokenhearted and set love ablaze
Truly, our Abba, Father could give emancipating peace
He alone understands even the most silent tears.


Today, it is 16th of February,
It seems not a day, but a year
I miss their innocent laughter
And the food we usually share

I miss those fragile arms
I lean for support
Oh, those gentle hands
I long to hold



The collision of love and hate burns your very soul
Yet I can’t promise not to taste it once more.
If loving them would require such perpetual “fall”
I’d be more willing to lose my senses at all

sophia [this is sis janine's pen name]

>>>helo sis...after what happened,i was able to make this poem...out of the blue....grave gyid ang nahitabo sis...it was so dramatic yet so real...God bless sis..

What happened to them made me realize that the bond that we share in the Blessed Singleness is not ordinary and that it's really the Lord who holds us together. If it was just a mere human bond, we would have ended up separating and going our own ways. Their rift could have led them to stop speaking with each other for years! I am very grateful to the Lord that He kept us intact. Blessed Singleness will not be Blessed Singleness if we lose three members in just a single day or any other day.

I know that we still have a long way to go. My heart's desire is for us to be together until the end. However, it is the Lord's will that will be done. I know that He is preparing us for something big, although, we still don't know what it is. That is why I really cherish all the memories that we have together while we are still in college. Misunderstandings occur every now and then and it's just normal for us humans. In order to resolve that easily, we should practice becoming a humble and forgiving person. No matter how hurt we are.

The Lord is always here with us. He won't let His children go astray. God speed, my sisters and brothers in Christ Jesus!!!

Start of the Midterms

 HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY to ANGELLI GRACE SUMAPIG!!!!

Ok.. I know that talking about exams is really uninteresting. But believe me, I don't want to talk about this either. I just don't know what to put as the title so I chose this one. Maybe everyone (?) in CNU are now busy studying with all the exams going on. So, why am I here blogging instead of studying? Well, firstly, I just want to clarify that I'm not slacking off.{maybe I am but my tests tomorrow are in the afternoon so I still have loads of time} Secondly, I just want to share with you my thoughts and emotions. I have been very bothered recently by the things that my Aunt has been saying about my birthday party and the way I dress. I do know that she's just concern but I do hope that she'll hear me out first and accept the things that I want. I don't see anything wrong with the decisions I have made so far and I am NOT doing this for myself. It's really for the Lord. How I hope that her eyes will be opened someday. I'm sort of hurt by her comments but I do understand the situation. Under normal circumstances, I would have been very angry and, at some point, I might have given in to all her criticisms and such. However, that is impossible without prayer. If she really wants me to change, then she have to call on my God for He is my Master and I will obey Him if He's the one who tells me to change my clothing.

The Lord really encouraged me to go on with what I have started and not to lose hope. My faith in God is the one behind my change of wardrobe. Call me a hypocrite or whatever you like. As long as God is pleased, I am satisfied with that. Always remember that God is looking at us. He is more important than 1 million people you meet. Please God rather than men as the saying goes. You should remember that.

I know that the Lord wants me to dress like this. There is nothing wrong with wearing long skirts. He is not looking for fabulous people, rather, He's looking for simple and humble people. Mind you, I'm not claiming to be humble and simple. Not at all. I just want you to know that I want to become like one. I want to be a virtuous woman like that in Proverbs. I hope and pray, that all the TRUE Christians, my brothers and sisters in Christ out there, will also become a humble and simple people, totally dependent to our Lord and Redeemer.

God speed to everyone!!!

***Note: I'm not backbiting my Aunt. I just hope that she'll be able to read this and understand me. I also want all of you to know the situation that I am in. I need your prayers.

A Blessed Week

The Blessed Singleness, Zarkity and Some Friends

It's been quite sometime that I last posted here in my blog. The reason for that is my birthday party. I was the one doing the organizing and the planning so you can just imagine how busy I have been. I was so excited by this party, not because it's my debut, but because this is the first ever gathering of the Blessed Singleness and the Zarkity. I was so excited that I can barely wait for January 23 to come. I have been praying for this since last year and the Lord has graciously answered me. It's one of the best gifts I received for my birthday. Even though the Zarkity is not complete, I was really blessed and I hardly noticed the passing of the time. It's really true that when you do it for God, everything will go on smoothly. Some of my close friends also attended and I'm sure that they learned many things from the Bible study as much as we have. Sis Janine was the one who led it and the Lord was really speaking through her. However, my aunts did not appreciate it though. Still, I was not discouraged because the Lord exhorted me through His Word in Matthew 15:1-20. I am sure that He was really pleased with what happened and that He was there with us.

I won't lengthen this post since I am already sleepy. But, I will leave you with some of the pictures that I personally took. God speed to my brothers and sisters in Christ!!!

Blessed Singleness with Myra

Blessed Singleness Presentation

 

Zarkity Presentation

 

Losing A Pastor

The title says it all. I am really sad that the Pastor Administrator of our church took an early retirement on January 1st. I know that I have not been a good church member. Before, I never appreciated any of his sermons because I find it confusing. But, I never wished for him to leave. I was shocked at the announcement last Sunday about his retirement. I didn't expect it at all. Since I've started creating sermon notes a few years back, I realized that his sermons are really beneficial and that it really has substance. I started looking forward on his sermons until I noticed that I don't find it boring anymore. My ears perk up when it's time for the message and my eyes brighten because of anticipation. I know that there are certain circumstances that made him come to that decision. And, I hope that he will succeed in his endeavors. We are now looking for someone to replace him. Of course, only God knows who it will be. I believe that everything has a purpose why all of this occurred.

I am hoping that our new Pastor Administrator would really change our church. I hope that he will be able to boost our morale and to rebuke us when we need it. I know that our church needs a Pastor who would encourage us and correct us whenever we err. Being a senior pastor is no joke. It's a big task. However, the Lord is always there to help and guide whomever He chooses to have that position. Jesus is the Head of our church and by His strength, the new pastor can do the enormous tasks that the Lord has set before Him. And we, the church members, will always be ready to lend a helping hand to that chosen man of God.

Please pray for our church. God speed, my brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus! All of you are in my prayers.

Maintaining Our Website

Ok.. So this is just full of random stuff since I don't really have an inkling on what to write.. Anyway, I'll start it off with our website.. It has been months since I created our website but I still feel that it's lacking and there are still many things that needs to be done.. I mean there's a proverb that goes "two heads are better than one", right? I really need ideas to make our website better.. Sad to say, it seems that I am the only one who is very eager in updating it and all that stuff.. I don't blame anyone though because I know that they lack the resources and the time to do so.. I just hope that someday, if God wills it, they will be able to help me in the beautification of our website..
As for the blogs, I have no problem with this since I enjoy writing because it enables me to practice my English and put my vocabulary into use.. It's just that, unlike some people, I tend to write really boring blogs since I just do it in a spur of a moment.. I find my blogs silly and senseless (not all though).. However, I know that there are times that I do write something that makes sense as long as it's about God and my faith.. I admit that I am no good if I talk about things that normal teenagers usually care about.. I am still in my teens, but I don't think the way other teens around me think.. Maybe because my faith in Jesus makes me different from them.. In addition to that, there are topics that I'm interested in while they find it revolting.. Doesn't that make you wonder who I really am? Well, don't worry.. I am sure you will be able to get to know me if you just read every single blog that I'll post in this site.. I am looking forward to being with you in the next months ahead..

Thank you for reading this silly blog of mine!!! I'm happy to know that you're reading this...

Welcoming the New Year

I know that I am a day late in greeting everyone a Blessed New Year. I hope that as we start this year, we will never forget the important mistakes we made and the lessons we learned in the past year that helped us grow in our spiritual life. The Lord has been gracious and generous to everyone of us because we still have the opportunity to proclaim His Word and to share the love of God to all the people around us.

To my brothers and sisters in Christ: Have you lived in 2009 the way Jesus lived 2,000 years ago? Have you given God top priority in your life? Have you shared Jesus to a lost soul last year? If not, then you still have a chance. Do it NOW. Don't wait for other next years because they may not come. Time is running out. You may think that you still have a lot of time by your side, but I'll tell you this, you can never be sure when your borrowed life will end. Better do it now and have no regrets. Not only for your sake, but also for the sake of those people whom you care for.

The Lord has always been in control and, until the end, He will still be in control. I hope that this 2010, you will let the Lord take charge of your life. Let Him take over the reigns and lead you according to the purpose that He has for your life. Always listen to His Word and His Spirit because they are the only ones who can guide you to do according to the will of God. Never forget to eat the Bread of Life and don't stop praying. Having good spiritual habits will enable you to become a disciplined person in the faith. However, don't just do it out of habit or out of duty, but out of love. The Lord will always be pleased with you if you do everything wholeheartedly and for His glory.

God speed and take care!