BLESSED SINGLENESS

A few days earlier, i was lying in my bed with the word 'BLOG' running through my head.

"blog,blog,blog,bloooooooog!!!!!!..."

what's blog anyway?i haven't tried making one before..

i was thinking why am i going to make one?

i mean why should i when im not fond of sharing my thoughts and neither am i a good writer?

then suddenly BLESSED SINGLENESS popped out into my mind...

I would not deny that way back in my highschool days, i also have a group of friends or barkada.

Having the initial letters of our names, we used to call our group 'MARCJV'.

They were the friends which my world evolved around back in highschool, it's always boring without them.

However,what strikes me most is that everytime i linger a memory about them,

i always feel pain.

Pain of being neglected,pain of being used,pain of being judged,it's the pain for being real.

So when i left Bohol for college, i also left the memory of my highschool years full of undying heartaches.

As i entered college, there i met my wonderful,amazing,superb, magnanimous,splendid sisters in Christ namely Jessreal,Juvy,Jeremy,Luz and Angie.(hehehehe)

And we are the BLESSED SINGLENESS!!!

(funny how i used to call us the 'SINGLE BLESSEDNESS')

but all the same we have a genuine gift of pulchritude.(.!_!.)

So if i were to ask, there are no words to express how much i feel about this group.

All i know is that when i am with them, i need not to be somebody else.

I need not to put expensive jewelries or wear one of the finest dress

for them to love me as a whole being.. And me being a rose,

they did not only love the flowers that's blooming in me

but they also embraced the thorns that are with me.

A great person loves the unacceptable side of others, and its amazing to know that my sisters in Christ are really great persons in their own unique ways.

They are the ones who made me feel the essence of belongingness,

 and that i'm also unique in my own special way.

Its been years and years since i learned to trust again and

though im not that open now, BLESSED SINGLENESS has helped me break the walls

that i once built due to so much pain and rejection that i've experienced.

God knows how much i'm thankful for giving me such loving friends

that i can always remember when i grow old. I could say that

 it's the time of my life that i am most thankful for through them I was able to know 

the truth, and I was able to appreciate the beauty of the Bible Scriptures.

Also to be honest without them i would not be able to try Bible Studies which i was very curious long,long time ago.

It's always a memory worth keeping in every second that i'm with them.

I can assure that when it's time for us to go in our own separate ways,

every memory that will linger into my mind will be the times of true happiness that i felt in every moment i had with them.

To my sisters in Christ- "yours is the face always worth remembering".

And to you, yes you! I may not be a good writer or anything but hey i just told you how i feel and that's something!.

(mwah,tsup2x,xoxo ug uban pa nyahahahaha) - oir=)

Welcome My Sisters in BS!!!♥♥♥

Yehey.. I gladly introduce to our readers my sisters in the Blessed Singleness who are now my co-admins here...

Oir - She really created a gmail account so that she can access this blog.. We will be expecting some posts from her soon.. Hopefully, on Monday, we can read what she has to post..
Sophia - We will be looking forward to all her posts since she writes many interesting stories.. She spent an hour so that she can gain access to blogspot and her efforts weren't futile..
Angie - I hope she'll be able to access the net soon so that she can also write.. She's a writer at heart..
Jessreal Lou - She needs to visit internet cafes frequently so that she can write here, too..

However, there is one beautiful Blessed Single who doesn't have a Twitter account yet nor is she part of the blog site yet.. Her name is Juvy.. Let's hope she'll be active in the internet soon so that she won't be left behind..

Sisters: Let's all encourage Juvy to join this site and to write as well because we do know that she's good in writing.. Agree?

From now on, expect many things from my sisters in Christ.. I'm quite excited for them.. I want to read their posts that much.. hehehehehe...

My First Blog by Sophia

NOTE: due to sensitivity of the matter, i decided not to narrate what really was the problem which would probably make this writing a little bit "out of this planet ". i do hope, with the wisdom of our ALMIGHTY GOD, you will be able to get something from this. 


ITS me vs Monster PAGUFE

For the past week, i scarcely slept and ate well. Unusual rashes covered some parts of my back, lower neck, and stomach. (It was so annoying that i even reprimand myself from eating chicken thinking its an allergic reaction.) Instantaneously, i became choleric, squeamish, moody, and a total jerk.

Perhaps, PAGUFE was succeeding in his job-that is gnawing my heart, suffocating my mind, abasing my soul.
Who is he?
He is a monster.
And i created him.......WITHIN.
He came to life when something happened between me and 2 of my dear friends.
He was benign at the beginning thus, i ignored him. I pretended i was fine, i faked my smiles, i even disdained the mere thought of asking for help. Then, he slowly grew bigger...so sooner than i thought..

I tried to confront PAGUFE. 
I tried to destroy this heinous monster.
But, before every battle would start, i would cowardly surrender.
Call me chicken, timid, craven, dastard, poltroon. Call me whatever you want. For me, its just hard to combat against the soldier you see when you look in the mirror. It is so hard 
to face ones fault,
to accept ones shortcomings,
and to forgive ones wrongdoing.

PAGUFE is my PAin, my GUilt, my FEar. He is crashing my spirit everyday until i remembered HIM.

>PSALM 27:1"The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?"
>PSALM 46:1-3 "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.Therefore will not we fear , though the earth be removed , and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;Though the waters thereof roar and be troubled , though the mountains shake with the swelling thereof. Selah."
>ISAIAH 60:13a "As one whom his mother comforteth , so will I comfort you.."
>ISAIAH 41:10 " Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed ; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness."

i lost many battles against PAGUFE, but i,with willingness, and GOD won the war. Nothing is bigger than Him; not the monster we create or Satan himself..."for our God is a consuming fire." Heb. 12:29

Now, those cataclysmal moments are nothing but learnings. I am walking in the road which God purposely prepared for me. Their will be many self-created monster i will face in the future...yet, for now, THE WAR is OVER.




Taken from the message Janine sent to me since she can't access blogger yet and we don't know why. All of the content was written by Janine. I just posted it.

We'll See Each Other Again!

Yehey! Tomorrow is the day we've been waiting and dreading for. I'm so happy that I can see again my Blessed Singleness sisters. And, I can get to spend time with them. Maybe you're wondering why I'm the one writing here again. The others were busy or they were away [sort of]. Anyway, please expect that they'll be writing here soon. I'won't stop bugging them until they do it. hehehehehe.

Anyway, I just want to inform our readers that we will be reunited once again. I won't be here much, though, because I created my own blog now so I'll only write here once in a while if there are any news about the BS. Don't be sad [as if anyone will be sad].. hehehehe.. God speed to my brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus!

Jessreal and I are looking forward to our future Bible studies since we were able to buy a handbook at a bargain book shop 2 weeks ago. We hope that the others will like it as well. I can say that all of us grew more mature during the summer break.