Summer time sometimes mean Bye Bye

Yes. You read it right. I'm currently on summer vacation and I terribly want it to end. You may think I've gone mad or something. I mean who doesn't LOVE summer? Well, I sure do love summer, however, I become lonely, bored and stagnant during the two months that I don't have anything to do. I sure want to get a summer job so that I can have some working experience. The problem is, I don't know where to look for one. Another thing is that I won't get to see and spend time with my sisters in Christ because they are all going home to their respective provinces, except for Angelli {but then she's got many things on her plate so I don't dare bother her}. I actually hate this kind of things. I don't want to say goodbye to someone especially those who are dear to me but I know that it's inevitable. I feel very sad even though I know that this is only temporary. Maybe, in the back of my mind, I already know that we'll separate paths sooner than I wanted it to be. Of course, it's not up to me to decide. Only God knows when and how we'll separate and if we will still see each other in the days ahead. I guess I have to start readying myself for that day so that I won't get hurt that much. I sound so pathetic and hopeless, don't I? It's just my emotion getting the better of me. I do know for SURE that I will still see them because Jesus has defeated death. And, I hold on to His promise that we, who believe in Him, will be with Him in heaven. That's why, my sadness is replaced with joy whenever I think of Jesus' promise.

On the other hand, there are also good things that summer brings. My mind can take a much needed rest from school related works and I can somewhat relax for long periods of time. I will be able to focus on learning more about God and to effectively serve in His ministry during this time. Unfortunately, there's a problem with this setting. I AM SOOOOO LAZY that I tend to just sit and become a couch potato in front of the computer or television doing nothing for God. I know it's got to do with self-discipline and, believe me, I have been trying to discipline myself some years ago but my efforts were just futile because I didn't ask for the Lord's help. Now, I want to do something worthwhile that will bring glory to God and to His name. With the grace of God, I can make it.

I guess that would be all for now. If I feel like it, I may be able to update and write here once a week. Of course, it depends upon the situation I'm in and my mood.

Want to know my secret in writing? I'll whisper it to you.. Come closer so that you'll here me..


*whispers in a small, chilly voice*
I'm not a good writer and the stuffs I write here are all impromptu. It's the Lord who has given me the words to write and the passion to do it. The Lord imprinted in my heart the love for writing and I know that He has given me the skill to do so. I've been discouraged before but the Lord has been very gracious to me and lifted up my spirit. Now, I only write for Him and through Him.


There you go. That's my secret. I've only divulged it to you and I hope you learned something from it.

God speed to all my brothers and sisters in CHRIST JESUS!!!!

What happened to "Christendom"?

It's been a month since my last post. I never had any plans to write today, but, I am so disturbed with the news that I had read a few minutes ago about molestation committed by priests, gay and lesbian ministers, atheist & agnostic pastors, etc. What happened to these people who are supposed to LEAD the children of God? THEY are displaying UNCHRISTIAN, UNGODLY, and ABOMINABLE ACTIONS that IS NOT supposedly present in A CHRISTIAN'S LIFE. What they're doing STAINS the very name of GOD and HIS SON, JESUS CHRIST. How can those who don't believe in Jesus be saved if they see that so-called CHRISTIANS behave this way? An unbeliever can never be able to distinguish a TRUE CHRISTIAN from a FAKE one because MAJORITY of the famous "CHRISTIANS" today are F-A-K-E. Only when a person measures another person with the BIBLE as the STANDARD can he know who is the TRUE and who is the FALSE Christian. Call me judgmental. I don't care. The Lord knows that what I'm saying is the truth. I am angry with what they are doing while claiming to be HIS follower. I don't hate the sinner or those people who committed those actions because I know that SATAN is leading them by the neck. What I HATE is the DAMAGE they cause to JESUS CHRIST'S NAME through the ACTIONS they did which they justify IN THE NAME OF JESUS. That is VERY UNACCEPTABLE!!!! I AM 100% SURE THAT JESUS WILL NEVER PRAISE THEM FOR THEIR ACTIONS NOR WILL HE SEE THEM AS ACCEPTABLE.

TO ALL THE PEOPLE OUT THERE: Those PRIESTS, PASTORS AND MINISTERS who did those ABOMINABLE THINGS, those who ACCEPTED THEM AS TRUTH and those who KNEW BUT DID NOT REBUKE THEM are NOT CHRISTIANS.. THEY DON'T BELONG TO GOD! If they were, they would not have done those things and they would be ashamed of themselves for TAINTING God's name.

Note: I am not claiming to be a saint and a perfect human being. I am also A DISOBEDIENT CHILD at times and I know that I've hurt God many times. I even bring shame on HIS name. One way or another, I am also guilty of the sins that some of them committed. I realized that being a CHRISTIAN in name only is easy but being a CHRISTIAN in deed is hard yet it is the correct way of sharing JESUS to the WORLD and obeying God. The priests, pastors and ministers impact and influence many lives which enables them to lead many to Christ or to bring destruction upon God's kingdom. That's the reason why I am so fired up with the scandals that are popping here and there about their UNGODLY ACTIONS. CHRISTIANITY has become a DEN OF HYPOCRITES. After the apostles died, many FALSE DOCTRINES AND TEACHINGS entered and enveloped the church and we can still see the effects of that today. Even the priests, pastors, ministers and church leaders themselves are lost and is in need of Jesus Christ. As members of God's TRUE CHURCH, we should pray for them and if we can help them, we must not hesitate to do so. This issue does not only involve the church leaders but also us, members, who are under their supervision. We ought to help them find the LIGHT of JESUS.

I know that this thing will continue until Christ's Second Coming. Till then, we should give our everything in leading as many people to Jesus as the Lord wills us to lead. Only with God's help and power can we make right the distorted view of Christianity in the eyes and minds of unbelievers. Let us pray that God will melt the hearts of the priests, pastors, ministers and church leaders who are involved in those issues and that He will lead them to Him.

GOD SPEED TO MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS IN CHRIST ALL-OVER THE WORLD!

LET US GLORIFY THE NAME OF GOD AND SHOW TO THE WORLD WHAT BEING A TRUE FOLLOWER OF CHRIST REALLY IS....

Hear Me....

That's the title of Sis Janine's message to me in Facebook. I was a little bit taken aback by what I read when I opened it. It was a poem. At first, I did not understand why she sent me that poem. But while I read it, I slowly understood what she meant by it. Before I post her full message to me, I will share to you the story behind that poem. On that day, Sis Janine was heavily disappointed and hurt by Jessreal, Angelli [both Blessed Singleness sisters] and Mary Ann [our friend in school]. They were supposed to skip PE due to a program in our department, but then, the three of them attended while Sis Janine was with us [me and Juvy] in the Kalambuan Hall looking at the ensuing program. They did not call her and they did not hear Sis Janine tell them "Let's go." So that's where the misunderstanding occurred. It lasted for about a day and a half. Since they are sisters in Christ, it's a great burden in their heart. And they are very close, for that matter. But, it all ended well. And we praise the Lord for it. I believe that it's really hard to fight a sister or brother in Christ because we were commanded to be humble and forgiving at all times. They shed many tears along the way and, in the end, Juvy and I was fooled by their very convincing act.
Truth be told, I was not that affected because in the back of my mind, I know that they will make up. Although, I was also contemplating on what will happen if this rift would go on. If they hadn't made up the next day, we have no choice but to interfere. The Lord really answered my prayer so there was no need for us to meddle in. Thank you, Lord!!! I never imagined that Sis Janine and Jessreal would ever go into a misunderstanding because they are like two peas in a pod. I guess my conception was wrong.
Now, here is the poem and the whole message of Sis Janine. She cried heavily on this matter. That's why this is not just your ordinary friend fights. This is not an ordinary poem either.

Paroxysm
(a sudden violent emotion or action)

In the 15th of February
My heart was broke
My spirit was crashed
Pain and pride, I gulped


As I took my cursing steps away from them,
Myriads of anguish blossomed within.
I was secretly groaning in excruciating pain
“ Oh, damsel when will this ever end? ”


My soul said, “Stop. Please, do not walk away.
Don’t act like an ogre badly dismay. ”
My ego hissed, “Hate. Do not look back.
Act like a Titan; be ready to attack.”



I was driven by an ecstatic force they labeled as anger.
I totally forgot it’s just a letter away from danger.
I drowned myself in oblivion and became madly bitter.
How it did happen- I couldn’t possibly remember.


Oh, what an agony not to look them in the eyes,
Not to say a word to the “angels in disguise”.
Perhaps, no greater pain one could ever feel
Than to hide all those tormenting tears



Oh, what a pathetic plight it had been
How stupid I was to bring so much pain
To agonize those precious benign beings
And give them not a chance to perfectly explain


I disdain myself for being eccentric and brat
But I praise God for touching each one’s heart

Only the epitome of love, mercy, and grace
Could heal the brokenhearted and set love ablaze
Truly, our Abba, Father could give emancipating peace
He alone understands even the most silent tears.


Today, it is 16th of February,
It seems not a day, but a year
I miss their innocent laughter
And the food we usually share

I miss those fragile arms
I lean for support
Oh, those gentle hands
I long to hold



The collision of love and hate burns your very soul
Yet I can’t promise not to taste it once more.
If loving them would require such perpetual “fall”
I’d be more willing to lose my senses at all

sophia [this is sis janine's pen name]

>>>helo sis...after what happened,i was able to make this poem...out of the blue....grave gyid ang nahitabo sis...it was so dramatic yet so real...God bless sis..

What happened to them made me realize that the bond that we share in the Blessed Singleness is not ordinary and that it's really the Lord who holds us together. If it was just a mere human bond, we would have ended up separating and going our own ways. Their rift could have led them to stop speaking with each other for years! I am very grateful to the Lord that He kept us intact. Blessed Singleness will not be Blessed Singleness if we lose three members in just a single day or any other day.

I know that we still have a long way to go. My heart's desire is for us to be together until the end. However, it is the Lord's will that will be done. I know that He is preparing us for something big, although, we still don't know what it is. That is why I really cherish all the memories that we have together while we are still in college. Misunderstandings occur every now and then and it's just normal for us humans. In order to resolve that easily, we should practice becoming a humble and forgiving person. No matter how hurt we are.

The Lord is always here with us. He won't let His children go astray. God speed, my sisters and brothers in Christ Jesus!!!