Looking at their pictures makes my heart bleed. I cried then smiled. I MISS THEM so much. Sometimes I wonder what they are probably doing while I am here crying and longing for their hugs and kisses. Maybe, they are also thinking of me. For sure they are. I could still remember those times when we used to laugh and eat together in our used-to-be called home. My Nanay would always go to my room and tell her heartaches. We cry together and sing songs for the Lord. How I miss those moments. A day would not end without Tatay telling us to be wise in dealing with life. He would reprimand us if it is necessary. Manong tickles me to the bones and gives me some hard punches. Those are my Manong’s way of telling me he cares and loves me. Often, our playtime would end into crying time. Those were unforgettable moments. Now, I can hardly listen to their voices, see them smile and touch them. When the day is over, everyone is gone, and everything is finished, I always find myself thinking and dreaming about them. Tears would then roll down my cheeks unnoticed and I just can’t stop myself but sob. Reminiscing those happy moments are just painful.
However, I still praise the Lord for giving me a family in school (Blessed Singleness and other friends) that never treats me as a stranger but with arms open wide welcomes me as part of their lives. Although sometimes we encounter misunderstandings and from time to time I get disappointed because of them, never did they make me feel I’m not loved. Every single moment with them are so worthwhile that I can’t imagine life without them. Together, we learn things with fun. The Lord also gave me this family in Sudlon. I don’t see them often as I used to before but we have this connection that only God knows what. Whenever I visit them, happiness would fill my heart. There are people who suddenly come into my life and encourage me all the way. My family in church (Bible Baptist Church) encourages me whenever my heart grows weary. What a privilege it is to have these great people! Though I don’t have my family with me, God gave me these families who give me strength and inspiration.
I admit it. I don’t have the talents others have, if we talk about “beauty and brains” I also don’t have it (by the way, it’s ONLY Darling who always tells me I’m beautiful because I inherit it from her=), a perfect family I have none and I don’t have an earthly home. Nevertheless, I thank God for giving me enough. Enough friends whom I can simply share my problems with, enough people who really cares about me, and a Heavenly Father who is more than enough. Indeed, they are my treasures. Life with them is simply amazing! Now, when I think of them, I can’t help myself but smile because if people would ask me about my family, I could tell them “I have enough”.
Mark 10:28-30
28Then Peter began to say unto him, Lo, we have left all, and have followed thee (Jesus).
29And Jesus answered and said, Verily I say unto you, There is no man that hath left house, or brethren, or sisters, or father or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my sake, and the gospel’s,
30But he shall receive a hundredfold now in this time, houses, and brethren, and sisters, and mothers, and children, and lands, with persecutions; and in the world to come eternal life.
" I would like to apologize to my sisters in Christ and my darling for the delay. It's just that I don't know what to write at first. Thank you for your encouragements. I love you all."
