Yes. You read it right. I'm currently on summer vacation and I terribly want it to end. You may think I've gone mad or something. I mean who doesn't LOVE summer? Well, I sure do love summer, however, I become lonely, bored and stagnant during the two months that I don't have anything to do. I sure want to get a summer job so that I can have some working experience. The problem is, I don't know where to look for one. Another thing is that I won't get to see and spend time with my sisters in Christ because they are all going home to their respective provinces, except for Angelli {but then she's got many things on her plate so I don't dare bother her}. I actually hate this kind of things. I don't want to say goodbye to someone especially those who are dear to me but I know that it's inevitable. I feel very sad even though I know that this is only temporary. Maybe, in the back of my mind, I already know that we'll separate paths sooner than I wanted it to be. Of course, it's not up to me to decide. Only God knows when and how we'll separate and if we will still see each other in the days ahead. I guess I have to start readying myself for that day so that I won't get hurt that much. I sound so pathetic and hopeless, don't I? It's just my emotion getting the better of me. I do know for SURE that I will still see them because Jesus has defeated death. And, I hold on to His promise that we, who believe in Him, will be with Him in heaven. That's why, my sadness is replaced with joy whenever I think of Jesus' promise.
On the other hand, there are also good things that summer brings. My mind can take a much needed rest from school related works and I can somewhat relax for long periods of time. I will be able to focus on learning more about God and to effectively serve in His ministry during this time. Unfortunately, there's a problem with this setting. I AM SOOOOO LAZY that I tend to just sit and become a couch potato in front of the computer or television doing nothing for God. I know it's got to do with self-discipline and, believe me, I have been trying to discipline myself some years ago but my efforts were just futile because I didn't ask for the Lord's help. Now, I want to do something worthwhile that will bring glory to God and to His name. With the grace of God, I can make it.
I guess that would be all for now. If I feel like it, I may be able to update and write here once a week. Of course, it depends upon the situation I'm in and my mood.
Want to know my secret in writing? I'll whisper it to you.. Come closer so that you'll here me..
*whispers in a small, chilly voice*
I'm not a good writer and the stuffs I write here are all impromptu. It's the Lord who has given me the words to write and the passion to do it. The Lord imprinted in my heart the love for writing and I know that He has given me the skill to do so. I've been discouraged before but the Lord has been very gracious to me and lifted up my spirit. Now, I only write for Him and through Him.
There you go. That's my secret. I've only divulged it to you and I hope you learned something from it.
God speed to all my brothers and sisters in CHRIST JESUS!!!!
